a lonely september :p

im sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do, or anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
but you know its not working out
cause you're all thats on my mind
one thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

im sitting here trying to convince myself
that u're not the one for me
but the more i think, the less i believe it
an the more i want u here with me
u know the holidays are coming up
i dont want to spend them alone
memories of christmas time with u
would just kill me if im on my own

i know its not the smartest thing to do
we just cant seem to get it right
but what i wouldnt give to have one more change tonight

im sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar
but with all my inspiration gone its not getting me very far
oh please, baby wont yo take my hand
weve got nothing left to prove

oh, i didnt mean for this to go as far as it did
and i didnt mean to get so close and share what we did
and i didnt mean to fall in love, but i think i did
and you didnt mean to love me back
but i dont know you did it or not

dont offer me that smile that i love to see
dont do anything that'll make me embarassed
hey stop it dude!
Though it makes me feel better
you know, im happy
i love your way for kidding me
i love it when you made me laugh
and i love when you make me embarassed
i love you anyway
or whatever im not so sure

just dont hang me up like this
say that you love me
or not
or whatever
i just wanna know what your feeling and what do you want

you seems like you know everything abou me
but you dont
you seems like you care with me
but yo dont
you seems like you love me
but you dont
well i dont know

Jumat, 13 Juni 2008
10:55

"hari ini aku balik ke malay" kira2 begitu isi sms yang masuk ke inboxku.. entah sedih karena mereka pergi, atau menyesal karena aku hanya menyicip secuil waktu dari sekian banyak waktu bersama mereka, entah..

aku tahu aku jahat.. dan egois memang.. aku tahu.. aku malah pergi entah kemana, bahkan di saat dia bosan dan membutuhkan teman..
huahh.. sorry brother..

coretan dari pelajar haus kasih sayang teman lama :p

pernah ga kamu ngerasa kangeeenn banget sama semua moment, semua peristiwa, dan semua memori di masa lampau kamu,, sampai - sampai kamu pengeenn banget balik di masa - masa waktu itu, di mana kamu benar - benar merasa bahagia sekali, atau bahkan kmu cuma pengen sekedar ngerubah keadaan wktu itu menjadi sesuatu yg seharusnya terjadi,, namun ironisnya kamu ga mungkin bisa ngelakuinnya..

pernah ga sih?
gimana tuh rasanya?

yup ak ngerasain hal itu sekarang! call me late or whatever.. call me a melancholic person or whatever.. call me whatever you want or.. whatever!!

mungkin aneh banget kali ya rasanya waktu papasan sama temen yang dulu akraab banget anda say NOTHING? feels quite weird.. (ohh okay, i mean not quite but SO WEIRD)
gimana sih rasanya tiba - tiba jauh sama orang yang dulunya tuh dekeett banget, pernah ketawa bareng, pernah nangis bareng, segala sesuatunya bareng?? how do you feel guys?!

DRAGONOHMAIGOD! (baca : astaganaga, red)
aku baru banget nyadarnya! telat banget ga sih? yah, aku baru tau waktu aku merasa kesepian, ada sesuatu yg kurang, bahkan hampa.. memang agak egois,, tapi emang itu lah aku!!

barusan nih yaa, aku ngebuka phonebook di hapeku, and i saw your name somewhere in there.. dan ga tau kenapa, aku tiba - tiba kangeeenn banget sama kalian.. miris banget deh, cuma ngeliat nama doang juga? sampai rasanya netesin air mata sendiri..

barusan juga aku ngeliat ada 4 sekawan cewek centil di sinetron kesayangan mamaku yang kusayangi, dan kulihat mereka bahagia sekali, baik dengan kekurangan ataupun dengan kelebihan masing2 pribadi.. and their friends are so proud of the other's selves..

"ini baru sahabat" gumamku..